THE PERSON...

How are we?

What we do?

What is our purpose?

Why we are born?

What we have done to realize that purpose? and so on .....

These endless questions have never troubled me. I was the one who was experiencing the bliss of ignorance until I met this useless fellow. I was very happy in my own little world of fantasies and dreams where I  imagined the world as a place having predecided things filled with people who perform specific roles and thus stay feeling "happy". So on one hand stood a dreamer ( only dream no work) on the other hand this person who was a pure rationalist, who believed that dreams are not of any worth if they are not worked upon and who always thought that I am the one "bad bad product" that my family has. Any ways this one day while discussing relationships we off tracked ourselves to philosophy... that was the day when my happiness and mental peace was sabotaged. He asked me "do you even know what you want in life? Why you are here? What is your purpose?" and in reply I was looking at him with expressions that loudly said " which world are you from and which language are you speaking ... if its Hebrew at least have some subtitles along with it.

That horrendous day i felt "truly amazing". Its like you travelling in a train since ages without the worry of destination enjoying your journey and from no where this person comes and ask you "where are you going?" " what is purpose of your journey?" and you stand there in front of him having the bewildered look that said "i have no clue". But this whole story has two aspects which i figured out. 

One, is it always important in life to know what you want? what is our great purpose? and how we can attain the mission of life in order to be "happy" in true sense? 

Second why life cannot be lived as it comes? why life sometimes cannot be left as unsolved mystery? why "pagalpan" to achieve the mission of life overtakes the joy of the journey.

 I was annoyed, frustrated, angry and truly speaking was not able to accept that this other species (rationalizers) existed. 

I had no clue and still at to an extend i am clueless about importance of those questions. Its like do seriously finding answers to those questions make you feel peaceful, happy and calm? My heart said "live your life you are no bad" but my brain said "now when at least someone has lighted some path go and explore". My mind and heart are still locking horns with each other and i think they will always stay in that mode. But one thing i have to admit to the "person" that yes life should have a purpose, some questions do need an answer but life is not worth living with grudges, its not worth living with unfulfilled desires and unused unenjoyed opportunities. For you i might be a person ( bad bad product) but for myself i think i have enjoyed my journey, i have no grudges, whether failed or passed every experience have added a new myself in me.